The Most Vulnerable Space is Love

When we fall in love, we are exposed. It’s a beautiful opportunity to discover what our insecurities and weak points are. Not only in romantic situations, but any familial love based relationship can trigger points within us, that expose what hasn’t been seen yet. We may think we are strong and secure, but when we haven’t fully let anyone in, it’s much easier to be that way. In amplifying our energy to keep others out, it’s easy to not be triggered because there’s no opportunity. Nothing can trigger you because no one has been fully let inside.

And bigger than the vulnerability of love, is the vulnerability of our expectations on what love should look like, and how others should love us. How our parents should love us, how our partner should care. We assume that we are valuable enough to be loved in the way that we want to be loved. Often, not taking ownership for the work on self and our own ability to love others to the same degree we wish to be loved in return. We are asking for something from someone, which we haven’t been able to fully own on our own.

All of these thoughts and feelings, about what we wish others would be doing and aren’t. Are in fact distracting us from taking responsibility for our own lives, and our own happiness.

Life is supposed to be exactly the way it is. We are supposed to be exactly where we are at. The growth of our soul and the compassion of this universe has given us exactly what we need for the next evolution of our journey as a spirit. As we recognize every aspect of our life as an intimate way to reach the next level, we stop doubting who we are, what we have, and the path forward and instead embrace our lives as it is. As a divine passage back to the divine, that every trauma and challenge is an opportunity for us to connect back with what is really important in life, which is developing as a human soul. We are in a school. The school is a lifetime of opportunities for us to refine our character, embrace our compassion, and lean into our weaknesses so that we can become fuller and more profound beings.

We envision a perfect ideal of what life needs to look like, based on what we see as success or love or joy. What we perceive as a healthy family or connections between people. They are all based on inner imaginations of a scale that doesn’t actually exist. Perfection is in recognizing the beauty of what things are right now. The inclusion of flaws and fragments, of imperfect pieces fitting so perfectly together that it somehow creates unison and beautiful flow of energy that strengthens both parts.

We didn’t come here to fix the other. We came here to grow into the fullness of what we can be. If we judge something in another, it’s an opportunity to embrace more love and compassion in the self and to look with humility at what parts of ourselves do we commit the same actions. The more triggering the action of someone else, the larger the shadow that needs to be released from our inner world. What aspects are we not looking at, to see this person with compassion for where they are in their lives. What aspects are we committing the same actions either towards ourselves or others. The fact that we have judgment shows we have outsourced our power and our happiness on the actions of others, and we aren’t taking responsibility.

We seek love, we seek connection. We are vulnerable to care and the compassion we feel and experience from others. It opens a soft space within us, and we therefore are ready to give back in the best ways we know how. We give back until we notice that their version of love perhaps looks differently from ours, and sometimes this hurts. We take it personally, we either blame them and want nothing to do with them, or less to do with them, and or we blame ourselves and feel bad about what we cannot live up to.

Both instances are showing us, where we are lacking compassion in ourselves. Where we are lacking a sense of value to give to ourselves what we expect from the other and or lacking sight and vision that what we are seeking from this one aspect, we in fact are receiving in many other ways from life. And that the divine is desperately seeking to show us in all moments of reality how much it cares for us. This doesn’t mean that life is going to be always perfect and full of comfort and wonders. It means that the love is so striking and blazing that this divinity is ready and able to put our spirits to the test when it knows we are ready and capable for the next level of our soul’s journey. It has such radically divine compassion for our soul’s growth that it doesn’t want us to have a fraction of time spent not exploring the realms of evolution. Love and compassion is there, but more importantly, it cares about our growth. And the easiest in to the next level, is through these love connections where our guards come down, and we are able to see pure reflections of what we haven’t learned to own yet.

Life isn’t about creating the perfect story, it’s about embracing the path of unfoldment. And the more we judge that path, the more treacherous the journey will feel, and the more we embrace our path and thank the divine for every opportunity we have for growth, the more we can feel the thrilling edge of our own divine growth.

Namaste,

Esther